Progress Towards the Vision

This Sunday morning I'm so very grateful for my experiences over the past weekend! I attended a Women Abide Spring Conference that has opened up some closed doors and rejuvenated me in ways ... I feel so thankful.  

When I got the invitation, I said yes instantly.  I've missed the atmosphere of worship and the style of worship that comes along with fellowshipping with these ladies.  Joan, the director of Women Abide, used to hold a weekly time of worship in her home on Sunday afternoons that became so precious to me! I received visions and drawings during those times of worship that I still treasure today. It was a life-saving respite. How I miss those sacred moments.  But I digress, the conference would be less intimate, but wholly welcome. 

In order to explain what happened to me during worship, I must give some background.  Since my early years in college, I've been involved with worship ministry.  Whether on a worship team, singing in a choir, or leading a band of musicians and singers during Sunday night worship or Sunday mornings, it was my pleasure to partner with God and follow the Spirit of God's leading to worship Jesus.  It is truly a ministry to me, and had been for two and a half decades.  In addition, I received a vision from the Lord in my twenties of me singing in a golden gown before thousands of people.  As I looked into the crowd, I could see in the spirit people being set free from emotional bondage that had kept them from freely worshipping God.  Healing was all over the room, some were physical, but most were emotional. Would this vision ever become reality in my life?

At the conference, Friday night worship starts. This former worship leader finds herself feeling awkward and distant from God. I was uncomfortable.  "Well," I thought "I"m still here." I began to pray, telling God how awkward I felt and that I wasn't going anywhere.  

Then that vision came back to mind. "You can't lead where you haven't gone."  I smiled, as I do now thinking about the implications.  I know now that I'm still on the path to seeing that vision come to pass in my life.  I could've never imagined feeling out of place in a worship setting, but I got to experience first hand what it's like when God sets you free from those hindrances and restores your freedom to worship Him! By Saturday night I was dancing around like I did back in the day. Dancing and celebrating my good God! I am so grateful to my Savior for the freedom He gave me and for not letting me continue to wonder if I'd missed out on His purpose for me.